Regrets
There are very few things that I regret in my life. I feel like everything that I have experienced has help shape me into the person I am today and she is someone that I am pretty proud of.
Now everyone has at least one thing that they regret and I do have a few.
To start off I have always been a standoff-ish kind of person, even when I was a little kid. I just always have trouble with the thought of what can go wrong and the anxiety that goes with it. You know-confrontation, disagreements, getting hurt. All the crazy things that you could expect from someone that over thinks everything.
As I got older and seeing everyone already have the existing friendships from sports and seeing the enjoyment that they got from teammates winning was something that I yearned for. My parents always asked me if I wanted to do sports but I refused time after time just thinking that I didn't want to dedicate that time to it. As you get to know me as a person you will understand that sports would had been something to help me control my ocd. I could had funneled that energy and been spectacular at something.
I also which that I embraced life a little bit more. As I hit 25 my life started shifting and changing where I wanted to chase the things that scared me and face them. I wish that I had that urge in my life while I was younger. I feel like I could had done so much more in life that sitting at the side thinking about how scary roller coasters are and how huge crowds around me can be overwhelming.
I am slowly taking on things that scare me. I still get nervous to be in a huge crowd of people but I am willing to face it and work through the emotions that overcome me. Its hard sometimes and I have to do it over and over just to catch a breath but its a bigger step than I was willing to take 10 years ago.
I wonder how many of you out there try and jump in to the things that scare them or if I am just some crazy woman that should had done fear factor or something?
Now everyone has at least one thing that they regret and I do have a few.
To start off I have always been a standoff-ish kind of person, even when I was a little kid. I just always have trouble with the thought of what can go wrong and the anxiety that goes with it. You know-confrontation, disagreements, getting hurt. All the crazy things that you could expect from someone that over thinks everything.
As I got older and seeing everyone already have the existing friendships from sports and seeing the enjoyment that they got from teammates winning was something that I yearned for. My parents always asked me if I wanted to do sports but I refused time after time just thinking that I didn't want to dedicate that time to it. As you get to know me as a person you will understand that sports would had been something to help me control my ocd. I could had funneled that energy and been spectacular at something.
I also which that I embraced life a little bit more. As I hit 25 my life started shifting and changing where I wanted to chase the things that scared me and face them. I wish that I had that urge in my life while I was younger. I feel like I could had done so much more in life that sitting at the side thinking about how scary roller coasters are and how huge crowds around me can be overwhelming.
I am slowly taking on things that scare me. I still get nervous to be in a huge crowd of people but I am willing to face it and work through the emotions that overcome me. Its hard sometimes and I have to do it over and over just to catch a breath but its a bigger step than I was willing to take 10 years ago.
I wonder how many of you out there try and jump in to the things that scare them or if I am just some crazy woman that should had done fear factor or something?
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