Love Letter 17

 To the boy who I was infatuated with, 

When I say the biggest crush, I mean the biggest crush on you. You were a steady crush. Until recently, until I realized that you are not the kind of person that I want to like in that way. 

You were always super kind to me. You never said a bad word to me and helped me with everything. You were just sweet as candy to me. Then you got a steady girlfriend and she compared she and I together in front of you. It was really weird, but I always took it as a compliment. 

Then y'all broke up. I thought yes, finally my chance. 

I tried talking to you and being friendly, but you just ignored me and didn't send me a second glance. That was kind of a douchebag thing to do. Considering we were friends before and now you act like I'm not even on this planet. 

I realized that I want someone who wants to give me attention. I want someone who finds the time to tell me hello and that they enjoy talking to me. I want someone who is willing to go out of their way to make me feel special. Maybe it's the God complex in me, but I want to feel like you are grateful that you know me and get to be around me. I want to feel important to your life. 

I don't think you have that in you. I don't think that you ever will.