Love Letter 34

 To the man that I pushed away,

You were persistent. Always there and ready in case I ever changed my mind. 

I wish I could say that I am a better person. That I was open to you but I wasn't. There just wasn't a spark there for you and I pushed you away with everything that I had in me. 

You were always so patient with me too. You made sure that I was comfortable. When we were out somewhere together you made sure to greet me and talk to me, making sure that everything was good. You were always looking out for my best interest. 

It's awful to say but I used to tell myself that you'd be my back up plan if things didn't ever work out for me. I knew that you'd be there to catch me if I asked. I had a steady faith in you to always be there for me when I needed it. 

When the news broke that you passed, a lot of us didn't believe it. Nobody could believe that such a good-hearted person left us. You had people reaching out asking if it was a joke while your family was grieving. I can't imagine what they had to go through with that.

I've never been more heart broken then watching your boys break down and cry at that gathering. Everyone was crying but seeing how much of their world that you were made it even harder.

I wish that you didn't have to leave us so soon. You really made a mark on our community. We all miss you and your infectious smile.