Limerence

Yall... I am in trouble. Big, Big trouble. 

This boy is going to make me fall in love. 

He tells me stories. He calls me sweetie. If you have been here a while you know I prefer sweetheart, but dude...I didn't ask for it. I didn't have to ask. Let me say it again. I didn't have to ask. 

He makes sure that I am comfortable with everything. He is attractive. We have common interests. He's smart. He's hard working. He asks me how my day is.

Dude, he stayed up and made sure I got home and told me goodnight. I live an hour away and he made sure I got home safe. I mean, the guys I visited before live closer and never stayed up in case I had trouble. 

Who knows, maybe it was a fluke, and he just wasn't ready for bed yet but when he wrote me back I nearly squealed. I literally could not believe it. I was smiling like a damn fool. My heart was fluttering. I was at a loss for words. 

And he catches me off guard like this all the time. ALL THE TIME. I just sit there smiling at my phone like I'm in a relationship.

I need to ground myself because this won't end well for me. I know where he stands on this and that's not for him. But sheesh y'all, he makes me feel like I'm someone special. 

Also, should I bring up the most recent thing I found out? Aries. You know air and fire have crazy chemistry. 

OK, ok, ok. 

I just need to remind myself that he doesn't want a relationship. I am not his type. I need to be a good person. I need to calm down. 

If he were interested, we would talk more. If he were interested, he would go out of his way for random things. If he were interested, he would say so. 

Butttt....

I guess were going to see how this goes because I am really enjoying myself with him. When I come back crying, I don't wanna hear I told you so because trust me my inner bitch has already made me well aware before you'll know.

So, yeah. 

Kind, funny, sweet as honey. All around beautiful person. Pray for me. 

P.S. my ocd is telling me to make this a tab series. Apologies when it gets added.