What a Disappointment

 You ever have like, mild expectations, for something and then afterwards you just feel like it was a real let down? I mean, there wasn't any sort of bar set but it just hit so far down that it ate dirt. 

Maybe that's my fault for thinking that it would be enjoyable. 

What am I doing wrong with my life? I want to lie down in bed and never get up again. 

What a bummer day. Even my cruise didn't help. 

I think it's time to leave. Do something new, go somewhere new, be something different. I can't keep falling back in these patterns that leave me broken at the end of the day. My heart and soul can't take any more. 

I feel hopeless right now.

I need someone to start sending me good morning messages and good night messages. They're cute and it makes you feel like they're thinking about you. I promise to send them back. 

Maybe a hot shower and a good cry is what I need tonight.