9/21/22

There's a negative thought that keeps pushing its way forward in my mind that you're done and don't know how to tell me because you're scared to hurt my feelings or think I'm going to go crazy. 

Its been a fight to keep pushing it down. I know that you're busy. I have to constantly remind myself not to get caught up with this. But my mind is against me. 

Remember, he said that he doesnt want anything serious. Remember he said he can't give you what you want. Don't you remember anytime any thing romantic comes up he gets defensive even though you don't mean it romantic because you keep it in your mind to avoid it. Remember. Remember. Remember. 

I'm anxious that I've crossed an invisible line that I didnt know was there. I just didn't realize your silence was so loud. 

I guess I'll text for a few more days and then I'll let go. I don't want to be a burden that you have to carry around. I've already made it a burden asking you to text me every morning. 

I know you're busy. I know. I know. 

Its not my place to get to say anything. I've been placed as friend and I should accept that friends don't get upset when you don't talk to them. You have a life you're trying to live. Even though my God complex disagrees, the world doesn't revolve around me.